ether of my mind

haii evb! so recently I went to a concert, and met a guy who i thought was really cute in the moment. i asked him to take vids on my phone fa me becuz i cldnt C anyting nd he was like oh its alright i can just send it to you after the concert, ive kind of got a mission to get barricade and i was like oki so i slid the gram for him to type his in, then in the middle of the set the pit got too dangerous for me so i hand to wiggle my way out. after the concert when i got home, he texted and was like i can send the vids tmr im rlly tired and i was like ok. he sent it in the morning and i was like thank U and he was like oh theres another concert from a similar artist at the end of the month are u going? and i was like ya but i got no one 2 go wit and he was like bet ill look for u come say hi, ill be better prepared not as sweaty and phone charged and i was like okay frr bet. he asked me my age, where im from around, my name. and tbf the way he text me is like semi flirty liek I thought we had smth. _{maybe im just that hoeless that i thought someone giving me attention was flirting.} he asked for my snap.

I DONT EVEN USE SNAPCHAT.. i USED IT because of HIM and ts ho friendzoned himself from me. like am i that chopped. am i that unloveable..

fast forward to last night _{so like a week later kinda..}, he said after i asked if he liked my story and i quote Fire im sure all the huzz with drop the hearts and i was feeling bold and said not u? and then HE SAID Im the bruzz rn FUCK YOUUUUUU i rlly thought we had something like actually, i hadn't felt this way about someone in years and it scared me even because i'd only met him once before, maybe it was the idea of him. HOW CAN SOMEONE WHO ISNT MY DESTINY LIKE MIKU, DJ, LIKE MONOPOLY, SING KARAOKE, POKEMON, and doesnt use tiktok. now that i think of it, it kind of seems like bare minimum but it IS REALLY HARD to find a decent man these days. but yk. now somehow i got a whole roster. ill update on that soon..

everyone @ my job is going crayz.. the management is not cool and favors certain workers. MY FAVROITE MANAGER GOT FIRED?!

Ive been applying to dessert cafes in my area, I really want to work at one like a cute job.

I got a cat which i have to pay my mom back for, HES #3000 DOLLARs/!

but hes soooo kawaii ><

I miss my friends a lot, I dont have my license yet. I wish i still had my friends from 2021. the only friend i can confide in 100% is my cat. or this blog. EVEN xhs got raided by yt ppl..

also valentines day is coming up so . yeah i dont have one thanks for asking.

I feel myself realizing im a femcel as the days go by. I miss my jungwon.

I miss japan. I want to go back. I want mor moneyz. I might loeave my job soon. I want to work at an old school diner that serves banana splits. I ALSO just need to stop eating because . im getting sooo fat and i cant get caught lacking like that. i tried to restrict my food today but i ended up going to sleep at like 6AM and waking up at 5 pm. i ate a soft boiled egg, a chocolate ice cream haagen dax, and i tried to make spudman potato but it taste like ass eugh :// wasted calories for what.